10:32 AM on Monday 7th May 2012 with 6 notes
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Try to overcome me. Have a penchant for outdoor things. A way out of the ordinary. Forty-seven unicorns or makeshift monsters. Take a pencil full of small things that scare you. Put them all over your open surfaces. If it feels too much, it is doing the right thing. Have a full heart for the people that hate you. For every moment you want to take back, push forward. Believe in all thing that you have no belief in. A stich in time saves nine. Save mine. In the case of an emergency, look to Rick James. I have a minefield in my heart. Its name is Bob. Have a can of soup on me. I will buy you things if it benefits me in some way. Today I pretended people wanted my heart. It wasn’t a good pretend because I knew exactly what it was. I hate everything with auto tune. I hate anything that sounds like pitbull. I just want things that are ultra-real: scabs, nose bleeds, heart attacks, stab wounds. Fuck all fake shit. Even if you punch me in the face because you are so sick of my shit and you are my husband or boyfriend or mother…I respect that. Kick my black ass. Choke me until I stop making noise. That is respectable. If I could make lace, I would. But, for now, it seems impossible. A thing too delicate for the bulk of my hands. I will get a job as an ice cream man and learn all of the names of the children and later I will know how to take them and do the bad things to them. In the back of my ice cream truck. Kids will do anything for sugary treats. Test them. Test your children. Tell me I’m not wrong. I will ruin their lives with bad shit. Just kidding. I love kids and rap music. I also love palm trees and sand. I will wear tie-dye shirts and dreadlocks and every song will be a disco song. When the man I love comes towards me, I will not back away. I will move forward until he is engulfed. An old man touched my hand on the bus and I was fine with it. i was like, COME ON OLD MAN! Nobody knows how close I shaved my pussy this morning. I was like, omg it’s sooooo smooth and what did I hear in response? Nothing. My life is living proof that I am the only one living innit. Gfymb.
